DON’T NEED TO BE

DON’T NEED TO BE HERE IN THIS STORE
DON’T NEED TO BE HERE IN THIS CITY
DON’T NEED TO BE HERE IN THIS STATE

DON’T NEED TO BE BROKE
DON’T NEED TO BE POOR
DON’T NEED TO BE FEELIN’ HURT
DON’T NEED TO BE FEELIN’ SOAR
DON’T NEED TO BE FEELIN’ PAIN

I NEED TO BE IN THE MUSIC BUSINESS
I NEED TO BE IN PHOENIX
I NEED TO BE IN ARIZONA

I NEED TO BE RICH
I NEED TO HAVE FAME
I NEED TO SHOW THE JERKS HOW AND WHO  I BECAME
I NEED TO FEEL LOVE
AND I THINK I’D HAVE IT BACK IN PHOENIX, ARIZONA!

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Tired

 

TIRED OF ALWAYS BEIN’ ALONE
TIRED OF NOT HAVING A LIFE
TIRED OF NOT HAVING A SOCIAL LIFE
TIRED OF BEING IN ARKANSAS
TIRED OF BEING BROKE
TIRED OF BEING POOR
TIRED OF BEING IGNORED
TIRED OF NEVER HANGING OUT
TIRED OF LIVING A LIFE THAT’S SO PACKED FULL OF LIES
TIRED OF NEVER HAVING ANY MONEY
TIRED OF NOT BEING ABLE TO GO ANYWHERE
TIRED OF NOT BEING BACK IN ARIZONA
TIRED OF MY LIFE JUST PASSING ME BY
TIRED OF NOT HAVING ANY FRIENDS
TIRED OF ALWAYS BEING UNHAPPY
TIRED OF NEVER BEING HAPPY
TIRED OF 2ND SHIFT LEAVING ME SUCH A MESS
TIRED OF LIVING
BECAUSE I’M LIVING A LIFE OF DEPRESSION AND BOREDOM
I FEEL I WANT TO DIE
BECAUSE I’M FEELING JUST WAY TOO TIRED OF LIVING
A NON-HAPPY LIFE!
A NON-LIVING LIFE!
TIRED OF LIVING A SAD AND DEPRESSED LIFE!

ALONE

EVERY DAY I GET OFF WORK I GO HOME.

THERE AIN’T NOBODY THERE.

I FEEL LIKE NOBODY CARES.

IT REALLY AIN’T FAIR!

EVERY DAY I FEEL ALL ALONE!

THE ONLY PEOPLE I’M AROUND IS WHO I WORK WITH.

MOST OF THEM IGNORE ME.

I FEEL LIKE NOBODY CARES FOR ME.

IT REALLY AIN’T FAIR TO ME!

EVERY DAY I FEEL ALL ALONE!

THE FOOLS THROW PARTIES AND NEVER BOTHER INVITING ME.

THEY ALL JUST IGNORE ME.

NONE OF THEM REALLY WANT ME AROUND!

IT AIN’T FAIR AT ALL!

EVERY DAY I FEEL ALL ALONE!

AIN’T GOT MANY FRIENDS.

NO ONE WANTS TO TRY.

EVERY DAY I FEEL I GOT TO CRY!

THEY’D RATHER BE FRIENDS WITH OTHERS.

HOW UNFAIR!

EVERY DAY I FEEL ALL ALONE!

NO ONE EVEN CALLS ME ON THE PHONE.

WASTE OF MONEY TO EVEN HAVE!

THE ONLY FRIENDS I HAVE IS VERY FEW

HARDLY HANG OUT, AND MOST 20 TO 30 YEARS OLDER.

WHY IS IT THAT I FEEL SO ALONE?

ALONE AND NOWHERE TO EVEN GO.

ALONE AND NOWHERE TO GO BUT HOME!

SO ALONE, I FEEL I SHOULD THROW OUT MY PHONE!

SO ALONE I WROTE SO MANY DEPRESSING POEMS!

EVERY DAY I FEEL SO ALONE!

I NEED TO GET OUT OF ARKANSAS.

I NEED TO GO BACK TO PHOENIX.

I FEEL I WON’T BE ALONE THAN.

I FEEL THAT GOD SAID SO.

BUT UNTIL THAT DAY COME –

I’LL BE FEELIN’ ALL ALONE!

ALL ALONE, EVERY DAY.

SO I JUST END UP BACK HOME.

NO PARTIES, NO FRIENDS TO GO TO,

SO I JUST GO HOME, FEELING ALL ALONE!

I LOVE YOU, MARY

 

BACK IN ’95 WAS WHEN WE FIRST MET.
YOU SAT NEXT TO ME IN CLASS
AND STARTED TALKING TO ME.
YOU WERE SO SWEET AND CUTE.

I CAN’T BELIEVE I FINALLY GOT IN TOUCH WITH YOU AGAIN!
AND YOU STILL SOUND AS SWEET AS EVER!
TO THIS DAY I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU.
I WISHED I ASKED YOU OUT BACK THAN,
BUT I NEVER DID!
I WAS TOO SHY, AND I STILL AM.

I CHEATED LOVE, BUT I GOT A SECOND CHANCE.
I DON’T WANT TO BLOW IT AGAIN!
I WISH I WAS BACK IN PHOENIX RIGHT NOW
HOLDING YOUR HAND, AND
LOVING YOU AS MUCH AS I CAN.
MARY, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL.
I WANT TO LOVE YOU TILL WE GROW OLD.
LOVE YOU UNTIL THE DAY I DIE.
WHEN NOT AROUND YOU, I JUST WANT TO CRY!

I THINK ABOUT EVERY DAY.
PLEASE TELL ME IF THAT’S OK?
I’M THINKING ABOUT YOU RIGHT NOW AS I WRITE THIS.
I JUST WISH I KNEW THE RIGHT WORDS TO SAY.
PLEASE TELL ME IF THIS POEM IS OK.

I KNOW I MAY SOUND SILLY BECAUSE I STILL HARDLY KNOW YOU,
BUT SOMETHING TOLD ME YOU’RE THE ONE FOR ME.
I THINK MAYBE IT WAS GOD.

I THINK GOD WAS ALSO TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING
LAST FALL, BUT I JUST DIDN’T LISTEN.
LAST FALL AN EX-FRIEND COMMITTED CREDIT CARD FRAUD
WITH MY CARD.
SO I KNOW GOD WAS TRYING TO TELL ME
NOT TO GO BACK TO FORT SMITH.
EVER SINCE THAN, I’VE BEEN WANTING TO GO BACK TO PHOENIX!

NOW WITH ALL THE SIGNS I’VE BEEN SEEING,
I BELIEVE IT EVEN MORE, AND I BELIEVE IN GOD EVEN MORE.
I KNOW WHERE GOD WANTS ME TO BE, AND I NEED TO GO THERE.

HE WANTS ME TO BE BACK IN PHOENIX WITH YOU!
MARY HODGES, YOU’RE THE ONLY GIRL I THINK ABOUT,
AND I LOVE YOU!
I TRULY LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!!

A MESSAGE TO GOD

(written during what I’d like to call my “Great Depression”)

DEAR GOD,

WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY LIFE?

WHAT AM I PAYING THE PRICE FOR?

DON’T FEEL I SHOULD BE HERE NO MORE.

MY LIFE IS SCREWED

BECAUSE PEOPLE CAN BE SO CRUEL.

SOMETIMES I FEEL IT’S GOTTA BE THROUGH.

BUT I DON’T WANNA END IT.

SO I JUST GOTTA LIVE IT.

I DO BELIEVE IN YOU,

BUT IT’S GETTING HARD TO.

I FEEL I LOST MY FAITH IN YOU.

THOSE YEARS I WENT TO CHURCH, I PRAYED FOR HELP

AND I NEVER GOT ANY.

THEY SAY YOU HELP WHEN YOU READY TO.

BUT WHAT IF SOMEONE IS IN DESPERATE NEED?

PLEASE HEAR MY PLEA!

DEAR GOD,

IF YOU OUT THERE, PLEASE!

I’M DOWN ON MY KNEES, BEGGIN’

PLEASE, PLEASE, HELP ME!